laki-laki berpena merah

ehm, siang tadi pas dikampus, gk sengaja gw ngeliat cowok yang betul-betul mirip banget ama si "Dia". yah, jadi rindu deh. padahal sulit banget untuk mengurangi rasa sakit yang pernah dia goreskan dihati gw *kok jadi lebay, lanjutt*. tapi gpp sih, gw juga udah mulai bisa memaafkan apa yang pernah dia lakukan. toh, semua manusia kan bisa salah. apalagi waktu itu kita masih dalam masa-masa adaptasi dari lulusan SMA jadi mahasiswa. gw udah ikhlas dia punya lebih baik dari gw. malah bersyukur lagi. okok. pokoknya yang khas dari dia adalah, dia itu suka banget nulis pake tinta merah. padahal dulu yah, *flash back mode on* waktu masih SMA kan gk boleh tuh nulis pake pulpen warna-warni kayak gitu. tapi karena pada dasarnya si Dia itu darah seninya tinggi yah, apa boleh buat. karena tinta merah itu aku menyukainya. haha, kalau dipikir-pikir rasanya gak meaning juga ya. tapi itulah namanya gejolak muda *berat banget kata2 gw*. karena Dia akan menjadi memori yang pernah ada di hidupku.

with Love,

xoxo

Beyonce - Sweet Dream

Turn the lights on
Every night I rush to my bed 
With hopes that maybe
I'll get a chance to see you 
When I close my eyes I'm going out of my head 
Lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide?
 
Clouds filled with stars cover your skies 
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby 
What kinda dream is this?
 
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you (Turn the lights on)
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true (Turn the lights on)
 
My guilty pleasure, I ain't going nowhere 
Baby 'long as you're here,
I'll be floating on air 'Cause you're my
 
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you (Turn the lights on)
 
I mention you when I say my prayers 
I wrap you around all of my thoughts 

Boy you're my temporary high
I wish that when I wake up you're there 
To wrap your arms around me for real 
And tell me you'll stay by side
 
Clouds filled with stars cover the skies (Cover the skies) 
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby 
What kinda dream is this?
 
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you (Turn the lights on)
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true (Turn the lights on)
 
My guilty pleasure, I ain't going nowhere 
Baby 'long as you're here,
I'll be floating on air 
'Cause you're my
 
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you (Turn the lights on)
 
Tattoo your name across my heart 
So it will remain 
Not even death can make us part 
What kind of dream is this?
 
You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you (Turn the lights on)
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true (Turn the lights on)
 
My guilty pleasure, I ain't going nowhere 
Baby 'long as you're here,
I'll be floating on air 'Cause you're my
 
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare 
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you (Turn the lights on) 
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you

Quote of the day

Sometime i really envy with couple lover. they look good each other. somehow even they have difficult situation they just enjoy it and smile. I think i understand if people of lover usually say, "The most precious person in my life is sitting right next to me."

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kadang satu jawaban soal matematika itu perlu perjuangan mendapatkannya. perlu nyasar ke hutan. nyari di komplek perumahan yang benar-benar asing, gak pernah didatangin sebelumnya. bener-bener annoying. tapi setelah mendapatkannya, hanya secarik kertas yang ditulis.

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i need my mom right now. she must know what should i eat right now!!

aku sayang ayah, walaupun kau seorang kriminal

Hai Ayah, apa kabar?

Apa dirimu baik-baik saja ayah?

Apa kau tahu aku sangat merindukanmu disini?

Apa kau tahu yah, aku selalu menyayangimu.

Dan aku juga tahu, kalau kau sangat menyayangiku.

Aku selalu menyayangimu yah, walaupun kau seorang kriminal.

Aku tahu yah, kau juga tidak ingin hidup seperti ini.

Tapi karena keadaan, kau harus seperti ini.

Apakah salah kalau aku menyalahkan keadaan, ayah?

Ayah, apakah kita harus hidup seperti ini?

Kau berada dibalik jeruji itu.

Dan aku menjadi cemoohan teman-temanku.

Aku tidak malu ayah diperlakukan seperti itu.

Karena rasa sayangku ini terlalu besar untukmu.

Ayah, aku ingin hidup seperti dulu.

Bersamamu, yang selalu ada disisiku.

Ayah, kapan kau kembali?

Kapan kita akan bersama kembali?

Aku sangat merindukanmu ayah.

 well, puisi ini saya buat karena keprihatinan saya dengan anak-anak korban dari seorang ayah yang merupakan kriminal. bagaimana perasaan mereka di "labeli" seperti itu. yup. semoga tidak ada lagi anak-anak yang menjadi korban dari kesalahan orang tuanya.

with Love,

xoxo

Secretly In Love

this song is number 4 on my playlist. from taiwan drama "Ring Ring Bell" soundtrack. this song by Della Ding featuring Yen J. Love this song so much. here the lyrics.

(Romantizon)

Dōu shì yīnwèi shuí wǒ biàn chéngle zéi

Bùnéng guāngmíngzhèngdà de guǐ guǐsuì suì

Shì bùshì huànyǐng shì bùshì huàn tīng

Wǒ huáiyí yǒurén àn ménlíng

Nǐ de xiàomīmī wǒ de xiǎo mìmì

Bùnéng sì mù jiāojí bùnéng tài jiāojí

Ànzì de xīnxū àncángle xuánjī

Àn nài bù zhù shēnhūxī

Totally tōutōu de ài Totally tōutōu de ài

Totally ài

Totally tōutōu de ài Totally tōutōu de ài

Totally ài

Wǒ xiān tīng pái nǐ hái bùzhī hǎodǎi zhuàngkuàng wài

Xiān bié tānpái zhēn ài zǒng shì màn man lái màn bàn pāi

Shénme dōu bèi tōu dōu wǒ de shāfā hé bèiwō

Dōu tōngtōng bèi nǐ tǎngguò

Rù ~ wèi nǐ chī tángguǒ zuò shénme bái rì mèng

Nǐ bùshì gè bùshì gè xiǎotōu

Shǒujī hé diàn guō zài nàlǐ yījiù

Shénme bèi tōu zǒu suǒyǒu de ài lái zìwǒ

Dōu shì yīnwèi nǐ wǒ shétou dǎ jié

Cáigāng dǎ fān shuǐbēi yòu dǎ fān kāfēi

Huì bù huì hòuhuǐ huì bù huì huànmiè

Gǎn bù gǎn zài àn yīcì líng

Nǐ de hóngxīn A xiànzài yā gěi shuí

Nǐ de hòu zhī hòu jué zhēn nàirénxúnwèi

Bùyào dié duì dié wǒ yào měi ér měi

Děng nǐ wánměi wǒ dì měi

Totally tōutōu de ài Totally tōutōu de ài

Totally ài

Totally tōutōu de ài Totally tōutōu de ài

Totally ài

Wǒ xiān tīng pái nǐ hái bùzhī hǎodǎi zhuàngkuàng wài

Xiān bié tānpái zhēn ài zǒng shì màn man lái màn bàn pāi

Ài shì mǎlāsōng de bǐsài wǒ huì chēng dào zuìhòu juésài

Tiān dà de zhàng'ài diédǎo juǎntǔchónglái

Totally tōutōu de ài Totally tóutòng de ài

Totally ài

Totally tóurù de ài tóurù nǐ tòulù de ài

Totally ài

Bǎmén chuài kāi zhēn ài hébì jiǔ wān shíbā guǎi

Zhèngzhòngxiàhuái zhēn ài zǒng zài gāi lái de shíhou lái

(English Translation)

It’s because of who, that I become a thief.
I can’t be open and have to sneak around.
Did I see clearly? Did I hear wrongly?
I think someone just pressed my doorbell.
Your smile, my little secret.
I can’t look at you directly, I can’t be over anxious
I can’t help but take a deep breath.

Totally, I’m secretly in love with you. Totally, I’m secretly in love with you.
Totally in love.
Totally, I’m secretly in love with you. Totally, I’m secretly in love with you.
Totally, in love.

 I sounded you out, but you don’t catch the hint unexpectedly.
Forget it. True love will come one day, you slow.

rap:
You stole everything, including my couch and bed.
You slept on them all.
Here, I feed you sweet. What are you daydreaming about?
You are not, not a thief.
My mobile phone and cooker are still there.
What did you steal? All my love.
It’s all because of you, I got tongue-tied.
I spilled my coffee again after dropping my cup.
Will I regret? Will this vanish?
Do I dare to press the bell?
Your heart, who are you giving to?
Your slow response is intriguing
I don’t want a spy, I want be pretty.
I’ll wait till you be perfect, my beau.

Totally, I’m secretly in love with you. Totally, I’m secretly in love with you.
Totally in love.
Totally, I’m secretly in love with you. Totally, I’m secretly in love with you.
Totally in love.

I sounded you out, but you don’t catch the hint unexpectedly.
Forget it. True love will come one day, you slow.
Love is like a marathon. I will hang on to the last.
If I get tripped by the obstacle, I will still start the race again.

Totally, I’m secretly in love with you. Totally, I’m secretly in love with you.
Totally in love.
Totally, I’m into love, into you. I’m telling you my love.
Totally in love.

I flung open the door, why is true love full of twists and turns?
Let it be, because true love will come no matter what.

 

mau jadi apa saya?

hello bloggers, gw lagi masa produktif nih ngeblog. yup, entah apa yang gw pengen isi di blog gw ini. tapi itu penting banget buat gw. dari lirik-lirik lagu yang ada di playlist gw sampai schedule kuliah yang menurut gw bakalan menyita waktu gw selama 6 bulan kedepan.
by the way, ngomongin massa kuliah. saya kepikiran mau jadi apa saya kelak setelah mendapat tittle dibelakang nama saya. now, i really consider about that. gw adalah mahasiswa juruasan teknik kimia di Universitas Lambung Mangkurat (must i proud of that? -_-"). tapi gw merasa "mw jadi apa kelak gw?" bisakah gw menyelesaikan study gw?" "bisakah gw mendapat pekerjaan yang emang buat gw?" but you know, i am little bit confuse rite now. yeah. i have deep feeling about my future. yang jelas gw gk pengen papa dan mama yang udah banyaaaakkk berkorban buat gw. kalian tw blogger, apa yang pengen gw beri kalau gw nanti diwisuda nanti. gw pengen ngasih kursi didepan buat papa dan mama. yah, dan gw pengen bw nenek gw yang paling gw sayang ikut lulusan wisuda gw. karena dia orang yang amat berjasa buat gw *nangis bombay* hehe (nenek, miss u so much. long live. wait me for my graduate ok?).
but, back to topic. ngomongin wisuda dalam jurusan gw harus melalui tahap TA dulu. sejenis skripsinya orang teknik lah. dan gak main-main. TA buat jurusan gw itu ngedesaign pabrik yang berhubungan dengan bahan kimia gitu. yah, ribet emang. tapi mau diapa lagi. ini kan jurusan yang emang gw pilih. gw harus konsisten dong sampe akhir. nah, kata dosen gw. setelah kita nanti TA bakalan ada sidang tuh. disidang itu yang benar-benar menggali nyali kita. persentasi design pabrik yang udah dibuat selama 2 jam non stop didepan penguji. setelah disuruh keluar dan balik lagi setelah 10 menit. dan setelah itu adalah pengumuman hasil kita kuliah deh. lo dinyatain lulus atau nggak ya di 10 menit ini. bayangin dong. capek-capek kuliah. lelah hati, pikiran, perasaan. korban hati semuanya jadi satu dan di judge hanya selama 10 menit setelah sidang TA. setelah kita lulus, barulah kita menghadapi kejamnya dunia ini *GRRR*
nah, setelah lulus ini saatnya kita menjalani masa depan yang kita ambil. mau pilih kearah mana itu urusan hati dan otak. jujur aja ya. gw gk kepikiran buat kerja di pabrik yang berbasis teknik kimia. gw malah kepikiran buat kerja di foundation gitu. atau gw malah kepikaran buat buka line clothing atau resto. aneh ya gw. capek2 buat ngejar tittle sarjana hanya untuk kerja disitu. yup, pertimbangan gw untuk ini emang banyak. gw itu cewek mungil, gw ragu apa gw bakalan bisa mengoperasikan macam2 alat kayak reaktor dan sejenisnya itu sedangkan badan gw itu mungil banget. orang-orang aja gk bakalan percaya kalau gw itu udah kuliah. malah mengira gw itu anak SD gitu. maka dari itu. gw masih ragu dengan apa yang terjadi kelak. mau dibawa kemana masa depan gw *armada mode on*. itu mungkin rahasia tuhan. yang jelas gw pengen punya kerjaan yang gw merasa nyaman untuk gw kerjakan. kerjaan yang membuat hari-hari saya bahagia itu yang terpenting. bukan cuman untuk materi belaka. because what you did as seen what are you be. so be lively.


With Love,
xoxo

my schedule at 4 semester

hi, blogger. now, i am at year 4 in my collage. yup, now lets begin my busy days. here check my schedule.


    Monday :

1. Chemical Engineering Process (08.00 -10.30)
2. Electrical Power of Engineering Process (10.30 -12.10)

   Tuesday

1. Basic Principles of Chemical Engineering (08.00 - 09.40)

   Wednesday

1. Instrument Tools of Chemical Engineering (08.00 - 10.30)
2. Chemical Engineering Thermodynamics (13.00 - 15.30)

  Thursday

1. Mathematics Calculations for Chemical Engineering (09.40 -12.10)
2. Chemical Engineering Units Operation Part 1 (13.00 - 15.30)

  Saturday

1. Social and Culture (13.00 - 15.30)

i live my life

yup. i proud to be me. i love myself. to be i am. neither easy nor hard. but to be i am. i really love. i love my day. i have great family who support me. i have many friend who love me and care to me. i love to be who i am. and yah, thanks to god for give me so much things in my life.

my collage's friends.

 

 

with my collage's mate. Rona

my best friends forever. love u all..

with bebeh (linda) my best friend too..

thanks guys, you are my big support in my life after my my family. love you.. *XOXO*

2AM - You Wouldn't Answer My Calls

Even though I know
How much, how much you'd hate it
This is the only thing I can do
Waiting aimlessly for you
in front of your house
No matter
No matter how pathetic I am
Rather than forgetting about you
Since I have nothing to forget
At the same place
In front of your house, I wait
To you, who already wouldn't answer my calls
To you, who won't even look at me
No matter how much I wish and beg for forgiveness
Even if you say it's useless
I stand and wait in front of your house
Even if you pretend like you didn't see me
Even if you pass me by like someone you saw for the first time
Until you listen to my apology, the one thing I have to say
In a day
I look at my phone so many times
I became surprised by even a small noise
That I checked several times
To see if it was a text from you
At first
At first, like after the fights we always had
I thought you would come back
Because you're too nice of a woman
To leave me so painfully like this
To you, who already wouldn't answer my calls
To you, who won't even look at me
No matter how much I wish and beg for forgiveness
Even if you say it's useless
I stand and wait in front of your house
Even if you pretend like you didn't see me
Even if you pass me by like someone you saw for the first time
Until you listen to my apology, the one thing I have to say

Quote of the day

Ya Allah, rasanya aku takut untuk membuka mata ini besok. Aku takut kalau aku membuka mataku lagi, ragaku ini tidak bernyawa lagi